This image reflects what I’ve been going through of late
I feel I really need a brand new year to start fresh…and leave the dead corpses that were my –mistakes and heartache- in the past
… I have found I’ve been holding onto so much guilt, stress, paranoia and regret
These feelings have cut me up like knives and I couldn’t let them go… they just got to me. I’ve locked them up inside somewhere…and it’s been almost impossible to ignore them or forget them.

I just want to unlock that cage…and let all these bad feelings escape me
I don’t have to be sorry to anyone or anything for how I have behaved in the past this year ..But I feel I have yet to forgive MYSELF …and make myself let these go…
I need to respect and love myself… which I don’t.
I’m a good liar to myself… and ill tell myself that I don’t feel guilty or that I do respect myself… but I think that’s all far from the truth.

This year I just felt that everything bad or regrettable I’ve done to myself or others has come back and landed on me… I have had to sit down and really look over myself… really look at things I wouldn’t normally look at…and try and find the good me inside. It’s not the best of feelings…
***But with the new year rolling in… I’ve come to the decision that I’m going to let all these bad feelings go… forgive and forget *for the last time*
I’m tired of beating myself up over things that were so long ago now.

And that’s what this image is about!
Call it a new resolution if you may… but it’s the path I’m going down!



all the little bits and pieces of this image really do have special purpose. She is unlocking a cage within herself… releasing her –demons- maybe… *just bad thoughts and feelings*

xxx enjoy
Original FULL A3 sized.
Drawn in faber castell watercolour pencils … NO water added.
NO photoshopping or computer editing… except for the watermarks
**** Apologies about the watermarks****
This will be available for print WITHOUT watermarks.